omg!!!! i am super tired!! i have been going out everyday and coming back home late...
n ya nisha invited me for a sleepover this week...
i have no idea how i am going to convience my dad for that..
but i always some how get my way la.. hehe
love yah daddy!!!!

btw thank you vinothini..shamimah and monessa for the post in FB..
so nice to have frens like them...

dinesh baby!!! i love u and will alway alway always love u ..

so much of love ah today in my post hehe..

my aunty just talked abt my grandma..asking me why she had to leave us so early..
she would have loved to be at the wedding..
n you know what... i know my grandma was there...she would not miss her grandchild's wedding

ofcoz i always wanted my grandma to be at my wedding too.. i know she will be there

things are not the same now that she is not ard..its gonna be a yr in a few more mths..
but i can still tell no1 is over the fact that my grandma is gone... maybe coz we thought that she would live forever.. after her death... than oni it struck me that one day every1 u love so dearly will have to leave us... eventhough we tell ourselves we know one day it is gonna happen.. we still will nvr be prepared for the actual thing..

i know.. coz i almost went crazy in my head ... when my grandma past away.. u know what even till today i still talk to her in my head.. and i am gonna make sure this family stays together....
eventhough a lot has been going on.. we are still one strong ramasamy family ... love them all..

i know for a fact..that's what my grandma would have wanted.. a strong family always together...
i miss her.. so badly..i miss her shouting at me for my dressing... or why i always cutting my hair.. or why i alway coming home late..
enough enough i think i might just cry.. k k ..bye ppl.. c ya ard soon....
love u all too...for viewing my blog hehe...

i did get the "i told you so"...
when i told them they i and dinesh patch up AGAIN!!!
i dont know la..this is like the 5th time.. but i am
truly..madly in love wif him..just that he 4gets
that he means the world to me..
he 4gets that..he completes me...
thats why he always tends to back off b4....
HE THINKS THAT I AM GOING TO LEAVE HIM.

you know somwthing i just thought i will be able to
not go back anymore..but i guess i was wrong....
i love this guy too much..that i am ntg wif out him
and u know something... he may say the most hurtful
things abt me... but he only is saying it bcoz he is also deeply hurt..
i love him always and always only...

me and my cousin's mother in law...sweet lady

well firstly i think the wedding went well..super nice.... love my sari ...
yesterday a lot happened...
FIRSTLY!!!!..dinesh brokw up wif me..
ya i know i know...
some of u must be thinking ... "AGAIN"
well ya... we broke up again.
n ya ... i am freaking hurt..
but u know what...i think i'll be alright this time
coz god really blessed me wif wonderful frens...
n ofcoz.. the best brother who really made me feel
like so much better....
THANK YOU MONESSA.. VICKY.. N OFCOZ SHANKARA ANNEH!!!
n ya.. not forgetiing samuthra akka and vengadesh anneh ...
they let me stay over at their place yesterday .. they really cheered me up too..
i had a great time.. expecially when akka wld cover her face when she saw something
gross abt the movie...hehe

i am happy.!!! really happy!!
definately empty... but some how if all this lovely ppl ard..
they make it feel alright....

i miss him !!! i'll get over it.. i seriously wish him all the best in his life..
i really hope becomes the person who he really wants to be..
i will always love him..
but just that i have to let go i guess..
hehe..

alright enough of my love life... its over after all..

oh my god ...u have no idea how much of shit goes behind these weddings untill you are part of it..
its not my wedding btw, its my cousin's... yesterday was the bangle ceremony... a lot happened!!
seriously ..i think when getting married ..you have to forgive ur past, coz u r starting a new...
so maybe there are million of ppl who hated you or hurt you..but no matter what they became a part of your life.. u can't take it away..so y not juz change it.. i mean forgive them, who knows
they might juz be the one there wif the big ang bao for your wedding...

I am saying this bcoz...ppl tok!! ppl complain abt y u nvr invite this or that person all.. why go through all this for your wedding..it might just make things as hard even after your marridge..

ya right!! who wld take advice from a 19 yr old girl!! the next thing i might hear is.. what wld i know abt weddings!!

but this is not so much abt wedding ..its more abt forgiving... and even a 9 yr old has the right to tell any1 that forgiving is impt.. i bet every parent will ask their child to go say sorry to some1 when they were young... i mean when it was so easy to say it at that age..now why suddenly is so difficult.

if you just put ur difference a side... and just invite bcoz u r family or your fren... than u did your
part to let go of all the shit that ever happened...if they dont come... well..atleast now they wont have any chance to create any problem right!

ONE FINAL LAST THING!!!!!!!!!... I know every girl will have their dream wedding... but no girl can do it on their own.. plz!!! dont be afraid to ask for help... there will be some1 to help..
I mean..if i was asked to help out in a lot of the stuff....i swear i will be super willing to help.. ntg cld have made me more happier than to know that i helped to make the bride dream wedding come true.. yah yah !!! i know!!!! a lot of opinions will start to shoot out when others get involved.but ..if u r firm n serious abt what you want!! than shut them up by saying no its ok..i still want it that way..anyway who knows some ideas cld have actually made the wedding much better...

wah!! so much of feelings just for the bangle ceremony .. wait till the wedding..omg!!! cannot wait to hear what i'll hear than.. no no!!! wait till its my wedding aiyo!!! i might go nuts.. NO!! maybe not..i love my family and my frens.... allof them !! no matter what i have done to them .. or what they have done to me... i will still want them there at my wedding more than anything...
(BTW i cannot remember anyone offending me that badly that i cannot 4give them la)

..............I MISS DINESH .... I MISS U SO MUCH BABY!!!! N YA HAPPY 2 YRS-SARY!!! HEHE

i watched 8 episodes of ghost whisperer..
total abt 8hrs wasted... half my day gone
n believe it or not.. i am still on my laptop

ok gonna move my ass off this seat soon
after chatting i guess..
so ya ntg great happened la...
maybe just that i spoiled my eyes even more...
or yah... ghost whisperer season 5 is gd!! very gd!!

............................................tmr's my 2 yrs wif my baby.....

2 days since i blogged...
coz for the past two days i have been out
and coming back home late...
went out wif viki 1 ( who is my fren ) and viki 2 ( who is monessa's fren)
vinothini..monessa ..and shamimah..
hehe i had a great time wif them... omg.. both the vikis are
so funny...

gonna miss monessa... she is going india..
babe tc alrite...

i am kinda angry abt yesterday though..
i mean ..some ppl can really know how to
spoil a day..
i cannot believe they did that anyway...
anyway now that i am back..
i promise..
i'll be there for my frens..
and no1 is going to walk all over them ..

viki 1..nice tricks... and i hope u enjoyed going out
wif them too.. they are ur frens now too...

yup yup... ntg much happened today..didnt go out..
did my excersice today... dont know if its working...
i really hope there will be a difference..

well i am kinda like organinsing some stuff
now... thats what i love doing....events
..birthdays...


i really need to tell u ppl something
i mean i am not some senior or what.. but its really what i feel..
i know its gonna be 2 yrs in this relationship..
n sometimes i get this.. oh u yrs 2yrs alredi what...
so ofcoz is easy for you to say...
but trust me.. there is ntg easier ..just bcoz its 2 yrs..
the hurt and the pain will still be as worst as how it was for the first time...
you will still nvr know how to handle it ...
but the one thing that keeps u going.. is bcoz u know its still worth it
coz a few mistakes dont over shadow all the wonderful moments..

so...dont give up coz u think it hurts..
i mean everyone gets hurt by love.. but ther still
look for love in some form rite... so stay if u believe
its worth it and there is more happiness at the end of the road alrite...

well.... what can i say, i have a sweet bf...
met him today...
he got his new phone... hehe very nice... just hope he takes care of it properly..
ohh ya.... we were fighting like for real... hitting each other and all...
well it started out just playing ard..than it became serious when he really kinda
like pinch my cheeks so hard... omg!! super pain.. worst than the other stuff la..
hehe than ok alredi la..
but he kept bullying me...

i oni met him for a short while..
coz he so wanted to meet satish!!!!!
aiyo this satish going to die in my hands...
always when dinesh is wif me oni ...he will kol la
IDIOT!!!!
not forgetting the drama he caused that day at sunshine..
actually he is not that bad la.. quite nice guy...known him for
quite a long time too..

in the begainnig i am like that la..i cannot accept that dinesh is actually going to go
meet his frens when he is out wif me...
but after i while i'll be ok la...
bcoz i mean he actually end of the day spends more time wif me
than wif his frens..
hehe he was quite sweet today..
he actually wanted to have dinner wif me so that i'll feel better that he is spending more time..
i said nvm ... coz his frens were waiting.. hehe that was more than enough for me.... his selfless thought... isint he amazing???
LOVE U BABY!!!

well.. yesterday the stupid wireless had so much of probs that i cld not blog....
ntg much happen la yesterday..
went to meet my darling monessa... so gd to see her after so long..
she was sick la... hope she gets well soon..
hehe we were updating each other about everything..
wow it seems the team puyal.. all new members..
and a lot is going on there too...

oh ya.. at nite.. i was chatting wif this guy vik.. in msn
from the team puyal.. one of the dancer.. so happen monessa was also
telling me abt him so much yesterday when i met her...
hehe..well was nice chatting wif him.. felt like i met one new
member...
well i wish them all the best for their performance next mth...

n btw... its such a wonderful morning... finally rained...
hehe poor dinesh...woke up so early.. at 6 am.. after that he went back to
slp la.. i think he still sleeping.. so nice to slp now some more...
well me have to go do excersice now.. c cya...

well... its been like forever since the last time i blogged...
hehe so much has happened..

well firstly... i am still attached to the lovely dinesh..
madly in love wif him.. will always be..
currently sitting at delifrance waiting for him..
hehe well both our birthdays are over ..
valentines day ..hehe as usuall when it comes to the both of us....
valentines day nvr works out.. again he made me cry..
but as usual.. he is still the sweetest bf ..
he brought me to vivo the next week..
bought me yummy chocolates...
and walked and lookded at ships and talk..
he is just the best..
btw next week is our 2YRSARRY!!!!
hehe..

I LOVE DINESH

okok ... enough abt my obsession..
now my family....
well now i am staying wif my aunties..
we kinda rented our house..
so we moved it wif them..
fun la..
to have 2 aunties .i cousin bro( who is protective..nice to have some1 like him ard)
and also my niece...
well dad and sis too la
so fun la..my cousin sis is getting married...
in 2 weeks time....
so i have been going shopping wif my aunties and cousins..
so fun aiyo!!! i love them la..
i am really looking forward to the wedding..
i plan to lose some weight in this 2 weeks..
stsrted today.
100 sit up
100 push up.
100 crunches..
well dinesh has been motivating abt it..
so i think i can actually make it la...

well as for my frens!!!!
I MISS THEM!!!!
i am currently having my holidays..
so i nvr met them for so long...
i think after the wedding..
i will hang out wif them la..
u know..
i think i'll keep blogging everyday abt my 2 weeks losing weight thingy k ..
than i know if i am on the right track ..